"And then you cant tell any normies about that cause they will give you a sad face and say
You went alone?"
why are you seeking their approval... do things that are fun or bring you out of the usual routine. you've never met single people who went on a vacation??? i think you're conflating your incel status with depression
anyways if you want validation from your vacation instead of a good time just find people who are more like you and don't think it is strange to travel alone, then maybe go with them next time